What a touching poem.
We surely miss Ah Ma.
I still remembered how she looked after and cared for us ( Meng Chiew, Peng Ann and me )
when we were in our kindergarten days.
Francis.
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Cheers,
Delphine Yeow
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
Poems by Helen tributed to Ah Ma
Saturday, 10 October 2009, 6.30am…
I write cos I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t stop thinking about our beloved Grandma who just passed away (on Wednesday, 7 October 2009, maybe 10.30am… Funeral the next day, Thursday, 8 October 2009, about 12 noon)…
I write cos I need to share with my beloved brothers and sisters out there who managed or couldn’t manage to catch final moments of our beloved Grandma laid to rest…
I write cos I still feel as if she’s still around, guiding me in my every move just the way it was during my childhood days when my siblings and I were staying with her briefly for a couple of months when Daddy was sent for training in Singapore during his MAS days and Mum tagged along… After knowing the loving side of her I wanted more… It’s in the way she touches…, in the way she speaks…, in the way she thinks…, in the way she gives…, in the way she smiles and look at you (such kind eyes)…, so gentle, so caring, so full of thoughts and love…
I write cos she’s such a gift of God sent to us, such a selfless living saint…
Just as us siblings who has been cared for by her, who has the good fortune to interact closely and have an insight into her kind heart and soul agreed, if she couldn’t qualify for heaven, no soul could…
I write cos after all the love and care she has given to me I couldn’t even give enough, haven’t given her much… It’s like her final years I hardly see her, get to care personally for her nor interact much with her… Though I kept wanting to do it but there’s always tomorrow… Then the final message came… And I knew there isn’t much time, so between work commitment and the little flexibility of time that I had I thought I came up with a brilliant idea training some juniors to take over while I could steal little moments and run to see her on and off…, but alas, it’s just too late… Weeks just wasn’t enough… As always, I was just too slow… I was bad; I took your presence for granted… And now, the guilt rides on… Forgive me, beloved Grandma… Though I didn’t give nor care enough, I never fail to keep wanting to, and trying to… I ought to have tried harder and do better… WE LOVE YOU, GRANDMA, YOU MAY HAVE LEFT BUT OUR LOVE FOR YOU GOES ON AND ON…
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OUR BELOVED GRANDMA…
THOUGH YOU LEFT LEAVING US MEMORIES OF LOVE
YOU FORGOT TO TEACH US HOW TO OVERCOME GUILT
THOUGH YOU LEFT GIVING US ALL THE LOVE THAT YOU COULD
YOU FORGOT TO TEACH US HOW TO LET GO…
REMEMBERING YOU AND THE WONDERFUL MOMENTS THAT WE SHARED
FEELING SO RIGHT SO LUCKY THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE
THIS IS ONE PRECIOUS GIFT FROM GOD THAT ALL OF US SIBLINGS HAD
SO PRECIOUS YOU ENSURED THAT IT IS LOCKED SAFELY IN US NEVER
TO PART
WHO COULD IMAGINE IN THAT SLENDER FRAME OF YOURS
BENEATH LIES SUCH STRENGTH, INTEGRITY, PERSEVERENCE AND ALL
WHO WOULD KNOW FRAIL AS YOU MAY APPEAR, NOTHING OBSTRUCTS, YOU CONQUER THEM ALL
JUST CAUSE OF THE ABUNDANCE OF LOVE IN YOU FOR US ALL
YOU NEVER SAID ‘NO’ YOU NEVER REFUSE US
YOU NEVER SAID TIRED NOR FRET AND LEAVE US
YOU GALLANTLY ACCEPT IT ALL; COS YOU KNOW WE ARE ALL YOURS
YOU GALLANTLY PROTECT AND CARE WITH ALL THE VERY LITTLE THAT YOU HAD; THE STRONGEST AND THE MOST PRECIOUS THING THAT THEY CALL ‘LOVE’
HARDLY DO THEY KNOW, YOU ARE MADE OF IRON
MADE TO EXPRESS EVERY LITTLE ACT AND GESTURE
THOUGH SEEM NOTHING, IS TRULY PRICELESS
SUCH A GEM IN YOU, SENT THROUGH YOU, SOME SORT OF SAINT SORT OF GODDESS OF LOVE, BLESSING FROM ABOVE…
YOUR LITTLE WAYS SO HUMBLE AND TRUE
FULL OF LOVE AND THOUGHTS ALWAYS PENETRATE THROUGH
REMEMBERING THAT SMILE AND THOSE KIND AND LOVING EYES
YOUR WORDS OF WISDOM GESTURE OF LOVE SHALL STAY IN OUR HEARTS SO TRUE…
A GOLDEN HEART AND A PRECIOUS SOUL YOU HAD
SO SAINTLY AND SELFLESSLY YOU GAVE YOUR CARE
SO READILY YOU’D SAY YES TO ALL OUR LITTLE REQUESTS
SO MANY OF US SO MUCH GIVEN COULD NEVER MATCH WHAT YOU HAD
YOU GAVE, YOU GAVE, YOU GAVE AND YOU GAVE…
TILL YOUR BODY FAIL AND YOU COULD GIVE NO MORE…
YET I FELT YOUR PRESENCE STILL GUIDING AND GIVING…
GRANDMA, IT’S TIME TO REST…, AND PERHAPS, JUST SHOWER US YOUR BLESSINGS FROM UP THERE…
(THIS POEM MAY END BUT IT DOESN’T MEAN THE END, MAYBE WE SIBLINGS SHOULD JUST CONTRIBUTE AND CONTINUE THIS POEM ON AND ON AS A MOMENTO OF GRANDMA? NO OBLIGATION, JUST A THOUGHT… NO EXPRESSION DOESN’T MEAN WE LOVE HER LESSER…
PERHAPS, PICTURES, MOMENTOS OF ANY SORT COULD KEEP THIS CORNER GOING… PERHAPS, ONE OF US WHOSE IT SAVVY OUT THERE COULD TURN THIS INTO A FAMILY BLOG WITH PASSWORD FOR ACCESS? I WAS TOLD IT IS POSSIBLE… )
I write cos I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t stop thinking about our beloved Grandma who just passed away (on Wednesday, 7 October 2009, maybe 10.30am… Funeral the next day, Thursday, 8 October 2009, about 12 noon)…
I write cos I need to share with my beloved brothers and sisters out there who managed or couldn’t manage to catch final moments of our beloved Grandma laid to rest…
I write cos I still feel as if she’s still around, guiding me in my every move just the way it was during my childhood days when my siblings and I were staying with her briefly for a couple of months when Daddy was sent for training in Singapore during his MAS days and Mum tagged along… After knowing the loving side of her I wanted more… It’s in the way she touches…, in the way she speaks…, in the way she thinks…, in the way she gives…, in the way she smiles and look at you (such kind eyes)…, so gentle, so caring, so full of thoughts and love…
I write cos she’s such a gift of God sent to us, such a selfless living saint…
Just as us siblings who has been cared for by her, who has the good fortune to interact closely and have an insight into her kind heart and soul agreed, if she couldn’t qualify for heaven, no soul could…
I write cos after all the love and care she has given to me I couldn’t even give enough, haven’t given her much… It’s like her final years I hardly see her, get to care personally for her nor interact much with her… Though I kept wanting to do it but there’s always tomorrow… Then the final message came… And I knew there isn’t much time, so between work commitment and the little flexibility of time that I had I thought I came up with a brilliant idea training some juniors to take over while I could steal little moments and run to see her on and off…, but alas, it’s just too late… Weeks just wasn’t enough… As always, I was just too slow… I was bad; I took your presence for granted… And now, the guilt rides on… Forgive me, beloved Grandma… Though I didn’t give nor care enough, I never fail to keep wanting to, and trying to… I ought to have tried harder and do better… WE LOVE YOU, GRANDMA, YOU MAY HAVE LEFT BUT OUR LOVE FOR YOU GOES ON AND ON…
**************************
OUR BELOVED GRANDMA…
THOUGH YOU LEFT LEAVING US MEMORIES OF LOVE
YOU FORGOT TO TEACH US HOW TO OVERCOME GUILT
THOUGH YOU LEFT GIVING US ALL THE LOVE THAT YOU COULD
YOU FORGOT TO TEACH US HOW TO LET GO…
REMEMBERING YOU AND THE WONDERFUL MOMENTS THAT WE SHARED
FEELING SO RIGHT SO LUCKY THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE
THIS IS ONE PRECIOUS GIFT FROM GOD THAT ALL OF US SIBLINGS HAD
SO PRECIOUS YOU ENSURED THAT IT IS LOCKED SAFELY IN US NEVER
TO PART
WHO COULD IMAGINE IN THAT SLENDER FRAME OF YOURS
BENEATH LIES SUCH STRENGTH, INTEGRITY, PERSEVERENCE AND ALL
WHO WOULD KNOW FRAIL AS YOU MAY APPEAR, NOTHING OBSTRUCTS, YOU CONQUER THEM ALL
JUST CAUSE OF THE ABUNDANCE OF LOVE IN YOU FOR US ALL
YOU NEVER SAID ‘NO’ YOU NEVER REFUSE US
YOU NEVER SAID TIRED NOR FRET AND LEAVE US
YOU GALLANTLY ACCEPT IT ALL; COS YOU KNOW WE ARE ALL YOURS
YOU GALLANTLY PROTECT AND CARE WITH ALL THE VERY LITTLE THAT YOU HAD; THE STRONGEST AND THE MOST PRECIOUS THING THAT THEY CALL ‘LOVE’
HARDLY DO THEY KNOW, YOU ARE MADE OF IRON
MADE TO EXPRESS EVERY LITTLE ACT AND GESTURE
THOUGH SEEM NOTHING, IS TRULY PRICELESS
SUCH A GEM IN YOU, SENT THROUGH YOU, SOME SORT OF SAINT SORT OF GODDESS OF LOVE, BLESSING FROM ABOVE…
YOUR LITTLE WAYS SO HUMBLE AND TRUE
FULL OF LOVE AND THOUGHTS ALWAYS PENETRATE THROUGH
REMEMBERING THAT SMILE AND THOSE KIND AND LOVING EYES
YOUR WORDS OF WISDOM GESTURE OF LOVE SHALL STAY IN OUR HEARTS SO TRUE…
A GOLDEN HEART AND A PRECIOUS SOUL YOU HAD
SO SAINTLY AND SELFLESSLY YOU GAVE YOUR CARE
SO READILY YOU’D SAY YES TO ALL OUR LITTLE REQUESTS
SO MANY OF US SO MUCH GIVEN COULD NEVER MATCH WHAT YOU HAD
YOU GAVE, YOU GAVE, YOU GAVE AND YOU GAVE…
TILL YOUR BODY FAIL AND YOU COULD GIVE NO MORE…
YET I FELT YOUR PRESENCE STILL GUIDING AND GIVING…
GRANDMA, IT’S TIME TO REST…, AND PERHAPS, JUST SHOWER US YOUR BLESSINGS FROM UP THERE…
(THIS POEM MAY END BUT IT DOESN’T MEAN THE END, MAYBE WE SIBLINGS SHOULD JUST CONTRIBUTE AND CONTINUE THIS POEM ON AND ON AS A MOMENTO OF GRANDMA? NO OBLIGATION, JUST A THOUGHT… NO EXPRESSION DOESN’T MEAN WE LOVE HER LESSER…
PERHAPS, PICTURES, MOMENTOS OF ANY SORT COULD KEEP THIS CORNER GOING… PERHAPS, ONE OF US WHOSE IT SAVVY OUT THERE COULD TURN THIS INTO A FAMILY BLOG WITH PASSWORD FOR ACCESS? I WAS TOLD IT IS POSSIBLE… )
Ah Ma...
Being closest to Ah Ma...i will always remember her smile...her kindness and most of all...her selflessness...bringing up us - the grandchildrens...was not an easy task..think of it...lots of courage and patience to give us a proper place to call it a home...she is the giver and the provider..a sanctuary for us even though we cramp together in a small unit in Pekeliling flat...by recalling Helen's poem, rekindle me back the memory lane of our times with Ah Ma...she is indeed our angel...and will always be...always looking upon us..I LOVE YOU AH MA...may u be in the Heaven always watching over us and bless us.
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